When Worry Overwhelms
As a homeschool mom, I’m entering my sixth year of teaching. As time goes on I’ve noticed that some things change with my mindset and others remain static.
I used to worry about what other people would think. I worried that people would not approve or that they would think less of me or my family because of the educational choice we were making. In fact I often felt that I needed to prove to others what my child was learning or able to do.
I found myself on the defense, a lot. I heard myself explaining to the check out girl at the grocery that homeschool students were out performing public school students. I listened to myself as I explained socialization to members of our congregation. I listed all the accomplishments he reached like a badge of honor to be worn on our homeschooling jersey to the waiter at a restaurant.
That worry, the constant need to be defensive, wore old. Fast! Somewhere along the way, I let go of that fear.
That does not mean that I don’t occasionally wax poetic with a stranger about the benefits of homeschool. It does mean that I don’t go around flouting and defending every chance that I get.
I made the decision that the school choice for my child belongs solely to my husband and I. IF others seek me for information I will gladly share and encourage them in their endeavors. But, no longer do I feel the need to defend.
Some things remain the same, however. That is the general fear that some how I will ruin him. I worry that I will leave out an important educational element in his formative years. I worry that I, as his mom and teacher, will royally mess him up. There are times when that worry becomes overwhelming.
I also know that I can’t give in to those fears. I have to remind myself of the reasons we chose home-education. It is in those overwhelming times that I try to remember to hit my knees in prayer, casting my fears upon my Lord and remain standing firm in the knowledge that He will meet our every need.
How about you? What are your homeschool fears?